Crying Inside

A friend of mine once told me this -> "mas tatanungin ka nila pag umiiyak ka kesa pag tumatawa". My initial reaction - I just laughed and agreed on what he said without engaging to any line of reasoning. Afterwards, I realized that it is indeed true and just became aware of myself contemplating about it. Why do people has this impulse on turning their heads back whenever they see someone shedding some clear salty saline solution or simply known as "tears"??? Is it really out of concern or just out of curiosity? Each time I see a close friend, acquaintance or even a stranger weeping, I can't help but utter either one of these 1) Bat kaya sya umiiyak? or 2) Kawawa naman sya! I guess, most of you have the same reaction with mine, right (",)?

On the contrary, when someone is laughing out loud, we're not even bothered (unless, it's a monstrous laugh that will either scare you or disturb your precious moment) to ask why. Perhaps, the reason behind those unstoppable laughter is very much obvious, "happiness".
But, behind those tears... there may possibly be thousands of reasons...

Reasons which are only visible to eyes of the person who owns the tears...
Reasons which can not be revealed unless somebody asks either out of concern or out of curiosity...

Why am I spending time writing this? Simply because, right now, I'm trying to laugh out loud rather than answer people's questions if they see me cry...

My First...

I have attempted nth times but always failed. Perfect time??? Maybe it wasn't then, but now I just found myself writing or popularly known as "blogging". I just sense that NOW is the perfect time to start my blog in my not so fabulous gym attire (my tee is torn), not so good smell (haven't taken a shower yet but, promise, I will), and in my muddled cube with Ms. Piggie staring at me (hmmm... I'll share Ms. Piggie's story in my upcoming blog). I really have no any idea what to write at the moment but, just for the sake of my first blog not to be mind-numbing, I have to think of something... (Hmmm... this is harder than writing a test case... I'd rather be a tester than a blogger... Haha :P Nerd...) Let me start by taking a glimpse on the past year, "2006". It was a mix of both good and bad episodes. I have been through a lot, roller coaster of emotions, I died and was revived. For the past three years of my life, I have been sharing all my thoughts with someone who has been my best chum but, something came up and that someone had to go. This hasn't been easy for me, I ran out of things to do just to survive each day. Mind you, this story is long enough (not to mention full of drama) for it to be an episode of "Maalaala Mo Kaya", hehe...
Good thing about what happened??? I've proven who my true friends and I've met new ones - some has been special and some has just passed by.
Lessons Learned??? Everything happens for a reason, whatever reason that is, you'll know soon... Life is a mixture of certainties and uncertainties, what do I mean by this? Figure it out by yourself... Lastly, I will keep on traveling on this journey called LIFE despite of distress or anxiety, if you don't see me on the road, I'm probably just sitting and resting for a while (and most likely, taking photographs) but, the journey will still continue...