Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Better Days

It was last week, Aug. 9 when I received a text message from my cousin about my lola (mom's nanay). It took a while for me to absorb what I just read. I was in denial although I know that it is a probability.

Lola Pinay celebrated her 86th birthday last June 17. We (her children, apos, great apos) all went to Quezon (with our best RED top in our luggages) to share this special day with her. We started this kind of celebration last two years ago, on her 84th bday. However, this year was very different, she was so fragile and couldn't even utter a complete sentence. It was very heartbreaking, seeing her like this. But, there was no point to be cheerless, it was her birthday, it should be happy in a way.

We started the day with a mass then followed by picture taking which, everybody seemed to enjoy the most. Drizzle didn't stop us from showing those best smile until we heard a soft voice saying "umuulan na... ". It came from Lola, we were all surprised! She was a bit smiling when we turned to her so, everyone burst into laughter. Oo nga naman, umuulan na eh nagpipicture pa rin!

It was definitely a happy birthday! It was good to see her again, to be with my aunts, uncles, cousins, nephews, nieces and other relatives. I know that Lola also felt the same way.

That text message said that Lola already passed away at around 2 pm. Afterwards, I received a call from my aunt "wala na si nanay". This time, it sinked in to me. No more 87th bday next year and an end to lola to greet everytime we go to Quezon.

86 years... I know life has been great for her. She has lived a well off life and experienced downfall when my Lolo died. She has gone through the ups and downs of this journey and was able to carry on up to the very last air that she inhaled and exhaled.

It was a serene death. Just like her usual afternoon nap. But, this time she didn't get up for some "lugaw" or "milk" and she never will...

She'll definitely be missed and her memories will always be remembered...

Heaven sent angels down
And gave Grandma her wings
Now, she's flyin' And slidin',
and glidin'
In better days
And although I'm all grown up
I still get confused
I stumble through the dark
Getting bumped and bruised
When night gets in my way
I could still hear my Grandma say...

2 comments:

Display Name™ said...

i heard this from nat =( sorry to hear about your lola. my deepest sympathy.

icebox said...

ei :) don't know how to respond... tnx nga yata dapat...